Dying to Fit In: A near-death experience to Heaven, Hell and the in-between by Erica McKenzie

Author:Erica McKenzie [McKenzie, Erica]
Language: eng
Format: azw, mobi, epub
Publisher: Erica McKenzie LLC
Published: 2015-05-25T04:00:00+00:00

BACK TO EARTH

“For those who believe, there are no words needed. For those who do not believe, there are no words possible.”

Saint Ignatius of Loyola

Once again, I cried out to God. I continued to talk to him. I didn't breathe. I didn't think. I didn't do anything but talk to God. Though it was extremely taxing, I did it because having that connection was all that mattered. It really was enough to sustain me. It felt like it took another lifetime to return to earth, but eventually I made it.

Floating near the ceiling of the emergency room, I found myself staring at my husband, Derek. He was sitting in a chair with his head resting on my limp body. His eyes were red from crying and I could feel his great sadness and exhaustion.

It was my body but I also knew the real me was not attached to that body. I honestly didn't think I could shove myself back into what had once felt so familiar, but now I identified as foreign. I knew reintegrating was going to be overwhelming and painfull. That body wasn't me!

I was limitless, powerful, filled with God's love and light. I carried the knowledge of the Universe. I carried God's message and lessons. I was a spiritual being, not that limp, worn out, abused body on the gurney. It was too confining and claustrophobic to even consider trying to stuff myself inside it. There must be another solution, but I couldn't think of one.

Please God, don’t make me do it. I can’t! There must be another way I can come back and do this work for you.

Those thoughts had barely formed in my head when I was sucked to the ceiling by what felt like a giant magnet. I moved helplessly across the ceiling, over the top of the curtained partition that separated the emergency bays and was then unceremoniously planted on my butt on a gurney.

Three kind, elderly nurses appeared in front of me. They wore scrubs, but also a glowing aura of light around each of them. There were no wings, but I knew they were angels here to counsel me, sent by God.

"Be quiet and listen," one of them said. "You will go back into your body. You work for God now, remember? You have received your assignment to complete your earthly mission."

A second one spoke, "It's going to be painful and your obstacles will be great. Few will be easy and none will be without effort to overcome. Remember your gifts."

The third one said, "Child, your uniqueness is your value and your value is your contribution on this Earthly Journey."

There was no negotiating. I didn't have a choice. As soon as they finished telling me these things, I had to reenter my body. I felt the giant magnet suck me back to the ceiling. The three angels disappeared beneath me and vanished into the light. My heart sank. I had always known them too. I would miss them.

Most of all I would miss God.

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